WONDEROAK

I thought I’d have more time, that’s the truth.

They said not to blink.

They said to enjoy every moment.

And I thought that was silly, because no one enjoys sleepless nights, bickering kids, or picking up scrambled eggs off of the kitchen floor.

But I don’t think that was it. I don’t think that’s what they meant (not really).

I think by enjoy it, they meant:

Live it.

Live it all.

The highs, the lows, the terrible, the wonderful, the joy, the pain.

All of it.

Feel it. Witness it.

Don’t be scared of it swallowing you whole, let it.

Let the enormity of being their parent sweep you away with out reservation.

Will you lose yourself?

Probably.

But you will find yourself too.

I think by enjoy every moment they meant that you may not get it now, but treasure these moments in your heart. Treasure every single thing from your four year old falling asleep on your chest for the last time, to your utter exhaustion as you stumble to their room in the middle of the night because they’re sick (again).

Treasure these moments in your heart because someday you will find the joy you didn’t even know was there.

Someday you will see that it wasn’t about being happy, it was about being present for it all.

Someday you will see every single moment as a gift, whether you were dead tired and grumpy, or spilling over with joy.

And you will just be so damn grateful you were there.

Love,

Jess